I don’t have a headacke, I don’t feel that kind of pain… I just know that my heart hurts and it hurts really bad. I don’t count on ‘her’ because she doesn’t think about me and about what I feel. I don’t know how to act and how to do things right just to not recieve another anger from ‘him’. Also ‘he’ doesn’t know how ‘he’ kills me everytime ‘he’ just walks away and after sometime ‘he’ just comes back waiting for things to be the same. And I don’t work like that. I feel like ‘he’ really kills me every second and I don’t know how much I am supposed to ”swallow” this behaviour.
It passed one year and I wanna scream that I need you… but it would be in vain. Because you’re not hearing and you’re not here and.. you never were here. And I’m alone.. as I’ve always been. I’m just me and starting tomorrow I have to put myself together and be who I am.. again.
I’m sorry I can’t be who you want me to be …
