*sigh*

I haven’t been able to write lately. It’s not that I have nothing to say, or that I don’t want to say it. It’s that I can’t.
I feel like what I feel doesn’t matter.
I feel alone.
I feel cold.
I feel a hole in my chest.
I feel as if I can’t say certain things.
I feel like if I do say some things, I’m either complaining or I’m starting shit or I’m a bitch.
I feel like I shouldn’t feel.
I feel like it wouldn’t matter if I fell any further.
I feel as if I’ve never been all that important.
I feel like I should never tell anyone how I feel.
I feel….

Here’s where I stop.
Because if I try to change anything I’m just fighting.
I’m alone.
I’m sorry.